Sure, many of you have been wondering where I have been and why I have not composed an article in over a month. Thankfully, I am okay and the lifestyle I live is not as tumultuous as I thought it would have been; however to make things short — I am alive and well. A little over one month ago, my uncle passed away from COVID-19 and this was a curve ball thrown with a combined slider (no one expected it). My uncle was out of work due to an ankle injury suffered at home and after being out for several months, he wanted to go in and try things out. Sadly, on the first day back, he contracted the virus after co-workers pulled their masks down and he got it from another peer. My uncle battled every day while hospitalized and he fought like a warrior ’til the end; despite the virus taking his organs and then his life.
The uncertainty of times has created an entirety change of unpredictability in the world we live in, as well as, the actions taken by society that have yielded positive and negative outcomes. I experience this daily in my day-to-day activities; whether it is outdoor exercises, visiting the farmer’s market, driving by outdoor eateries and my place of employment. As a front-line worker, this virus has taken a toll on the physical, mental, spiritual and emotional health to the point that we (as a society) lack the very basic coping mechanisms to effectively manage this New World Order. Without getting into the politics or conspiracy theories clinging onto the branches of these factors, we are forever a new globe that must adapt or perish in the ashes.
While I have been away from writing, this has allowed me to better focus on myself, my family and thinking heavily about how I am forced to raise my biracial infant daughter in this chaos (systemic racism, broken justice system, profiling by police, etc). Will I really be able to protect her? Will I fail as a parent and miss warning signs of distress because of the physiological and psychological trauma I experience daily in my line of work? I can only hope and pray because no matter what scenario I have been through in life, one thing for sure is that, faith has always seen me through. I took notice that my spiritual well-being has increased and my workout regime continues to be an uphill battle (one that I’m winning).
I am thankful to be here writing to you and vow to myself that I will continue to create and conquer the beast inside of me that often steals the light from me. Yet, even in the darkness, I am proud to say I am pushing through because I was stuck in complete darkness for several years before a needle of light provided me enough hope to push forward. I will leave you with this to ponder on, a quote by Leo Tolstoy:
“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.”
Stay blessed, stay positive, stay beautiful and most importantly…stay YOU!
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